Recently, I found that being appreciated by others can bring pressure. When I was sewing Anne of Green Gables, I only thought about how I see her in my imagination. I had in mind was that I was learning all the time and making mistakes. Of course, I wanted doll to be beautiful, but I wouldn’t care if something went wrong. I have to immodestly say that Anne looks wonderfully. This is not only my opinion. After Anne’s photos were shared on different groups on Facebook, the response was incredibly large.
Over 1,000 people liked the post on one of the groups. It made me very happy, but when the emotions subsided and I sat down to sew another head, I started to wonder what to sew. And unfortunately, instead of formulating the head at ease, and then deciding what the doll will be like, I started to wonder what kind of doll I should sew to please others. A thought crossed my mind if I could sew something that would be better than Anne of Green Gables.
I couldn’t treat myself to a worse approach. Instead of trying new techniques and experimenting as usual, I started to focus on the desired end result. Fortunately, it didn’t last long. I thought that by doing this, I would lose all the joy of creating these beautiful dolls. So I don’t know if the next doll will be good, pretty or better than the previous one. Probably not. But it will be mine, like all the others. And it will be great if someone likes it, but if not, it will also be ok. I had to say that to feel the pleasure of sewing these little dolls again.
Two heads were formed. I don’t usually do two at once, but I wanted to try out a new way of doing eyes. Previously, I only sewed eyes, now I wanted to model them using the dry felting method. So that they are slightly convex. I tried twice. One face turned out evidently boyish. When I changed the way dry felting a little, the eyes of the Asian girl came out. I decided to use this head and make some oblique-eyed doll. Now I have two heads and, probably knowing life, I will sew another one before I start sewing the body.